Its almost 2020!

Almost 10 years ago I started this blog, I can't believe its been that long!!!!! I have had 2 kids (my beautiful girls Keirah and Raelyn) and we have done a lot of living and I am now fatter than ever!! It is so sad!! I probably weigh 275 or 278 but I am so sick of being fat that I can hardly stand it. The last time I posted here I was 50 lbs lighter, I have to do that again!!! I am doing some planning right now, here are my ideas:

1. Weigh in every week instead of daily or weekly. This will help me be motivated to feel better only and not be obsessed with the scale.
2. I am going to write a weekly menu and do what meal prepping that I can and I am going to save the weeks to switch up my diet. So I will make weekly plans and lists that I can refer to again.
3. I am not going to count calories, I am going to eat clean and more power foods and anti-inflammatory foods.
4. My diet will be going gluten-free, dairy-free, sugar-free and processed foods free. This will include a few grains and healthy fats and no eating out!!

I will be back here to post my progress. I hope this will be a super great year and the start of a fantastic new decade! Here's to feeling better and looking better!!!! Stay tuned!!

Update

I know this blog isn't useful if I am not dieting and posting on it.  I do hope that there are still some people that care and want to know how I am doing on it.  If you are watching and caring, would you please comment and let me know?  I have been so stressful!!!!  I am trying to get PG and have been disappointed 3 months in a row now and that has caused me a lot of sadness and a lot of hormones.  I just want one more baby so bad I can't think of anything else.  I also took a job that started on Monday of this week and its stressful too.  I haven't been to the gym at all this week and next week will be more of the same thanks to my training schedule but when I get to my normal shift, all that is going to change.  I am going to get back into the gym with a vengeance and I am also going to start counting and losing again!!  I am so happy to get back to my routine of weight loss.  I have had a sufficient break and I know that worrying and fretting about getting pregnant is causing the opposite of the desired effect so I am just going to chill out about that and make weight loss my goal again.  I hope the baby will come when "she" is ready and my joy will be full!!!  I adore my boys but I want a girl to make our family complete.  I would be just as happy to get another boy too!  LOL - Anyways, please keep up with me and don't despair.  I am coming back next week and I will be posting up a storm!! Love and gratitude to all of you my readers!! xoxooxoxox  I WILL NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!!!

S0 Happy!!

I weighed myself today and was stunned to see that I weigh 225 LOL !! What a great surprise!!!  I was assuming that since I have not been counting calories for a month now that I would have gained.  I had also cut down on my gym visits but not by choice.  Does this mean that I am learning what it means to at least maintain?  I sure hope so!!!  That part of the equation is sooo critical.  I am glad I can maintain because that will be the last and most enduring part of my life long weight loss.  I refuse to let the weight go back on.  This week I resolve to go back to the gym and stop letting life get in the way. I also resolve to eat well and stay full and to write down my food intake again.  I know that helps a lot and is the key to the success I have had.  Next Monday, I am going to find out what my BMR is again so I can be eating at or around that amount in order to lose weight.  I also resolve to drink a lot more water and to taper down my diet drink intake.  I love being healthy and I love how my pants and clothes feel, it is so marvelous!!!  I love that people are noticing my weight loss.  I love the dividends all around.  I am going to keep my goals this week and I will let you know how I do!!!  Time to get back in the saddle for reals this time!!!  Wish me luck! xox thanks for reading - over and out!

Trying to get back in the saddle...

I have been trying to get back to the point of losing and it is so hard!! Why does TTOTM do a number on you mentally as well as physically?  I am so depressed somehow and I don't know what is causing it.  I am just going to make sure that I get to the gym today and stop missing all the time.  I have only been managing to go about 2 times a week and that is just not enough.  If I go today and tomorrow, that is only 2 this week but I am just going to refuse to allow myself to miss any more.  I need 5x per week and that is how I am going to get back in the saddle.  I want to lose more weight and achieve my goal of 200 and I won't ever give up!!!  I am going to update this blog more too so I can have something to refer to for how much I have done.  Thank you for still staying in there with me, I know its a long journey, but I am ready to finish it.   I will never give up and never give in to fat!!!  Love you!

Maintaining at least

Well this isn't that fun of a diet blog anymore because I think I have lost my edge.  I haven't changed my eating habits but I have not been as careful and all I can do is maintain my 225.5 for the time being.  Thats ok because I am still working out and I kind of feel like it is a rest for me as long as I don't go back up.  This morning I burned 500 cals at the gym and that felt so good!  I am eating a squash and veggie stir fry for dinner and it smells soo good.  I am not eating bad stuff and am still trying to follow my plan, just not as carefully.  So this is me on a break I guess but I hope to be back at it as soon as I can and to renew my energy to do this.  I won't ever quit!!!!  :)  Thanks for still caring and I will see you on here more often, I promise!  Love you!

Back to good...

I am now back to 227 much to my great joy...lol - it is now up to me going lower than that.  I know I can and today I put in a kick butt workout at the gym.  I have cut down my eating a bit and I think that is helping.  I can't wait to see if I can get lower than 227 by Sunday, then I really will have renewed hope!! I will never ever ever ever give up, this is for life and I am not going to quit.  I can feel my fitness coming and I can dream of it and almost taste it.  I know I can get out of the 200s altogether and keep my weight healthy for the rest of my life.  It will happen!!  :)  Thanks for tuning in and for caring...love you bye!

Ok, I am still here...

It has been a while since I posted because I have been gone on vacation and have had family in town and it has been a very long 2 weeks and mostly not on my diet :( - The good news is I still weigh 228.5 so I didn't gain too much but it is still 1.5 lbs more than what I have gotten down too so I am really wanting to get that off.  It seems like the powers of hell have been conspiring against me lately.  I had TTOTM to add on top so it has been hard!! I had a great time in St George and Vegas last week and Sean and I enjoyed the much needed break from life.  I ate at buffets and snacked and ate candy bars and didnt exercise so it is a wonder I didn't do worse.  I am trying to get back on but it is hard when you have to find your motivation again.  I am not going to give up though.  I have a filthy house and I am so behind but I think that I will get that all taken care of this week.  Camo is starting Preschool tomorrow so I will have some time when he is gone to work hard on getting caught up.  I feel like I will do a lot better when I have my life routine back and it works for me again.  I tried to go to the gym today but they told me there was a 25 min wait for childcare so I went home sad and worked on my kitchen.  I had an appt for Tyler to see an ENT for his ears and it turns out he has to have tubes in his ears :(  poor baby.  I figured he would need to.  I really hope it helps him, the poor little baby.  More details on that to come.  Tonight I was practicing walking with him and he took his first little faltering steps on his own, it was soooooo cute!!! He is way passed the time to walk so I am so happy to see him trying.  I think his ears have played a big part in that and I am hopeful that he will be much better after the surgery.  Ok, now you are caught up on my life and you know that I won't give up my diet.  I will be back at it this week and hopeful to lose some more weight!  Love to all and see you soon! xo