Back to good...

I am now back to 227 much to my great joy...lol - it is now up to me going lower than that.  I know I can and today I put in a kick butt workout at the gym.  I have cut down my eating a bit and I think that is helping.  I can't wait to see if I can get lower than 227 by Sunday, then I really will have renewed hope!! I will never ever ever ever give up, this is for life and I am not going to quit.  I can feel my fitness coming and I can dream of it and almost taste it.  I know I can get out of the 200s altogether and keep my weight healthy for the rest of my life.  It will happen!!  :)  Thanks for tuning in and for caring...love you bye!

Ok, I am still here...

It has been a while since I posted because I have been gone on vacation and have had family in town and it has been a very long 2 weeks and mostly not on my diet :( - The good news is I still weigh 228.5 so I didn't gain too much but it is still 1.5 lbs more than what I have gotten down too so I am really wanting to get that off.  It seems like the powers of hell have been conspiring against me lately.  I had TTOTM to add on top so it has been hard!! I had a great time in St George and Vegas last week and Sean and I enjoyed the much needed break from life.  I ate at buffets and snacked and ate candy bars and didnt exercise so it is a wonder I didn't do worse.  I am trying to get back on but it is hard when you have to find your motivation again.  I am not going to give up though.  I have a filthy house and I am so behind but I think that I will get that all taken care of this week.  Camo is starting Preschool tomorrow so I will have some time when he is gone to work hard on getting caught up.  I feel like I will do a lot better when I have my life routine back and it works for me again.  I tried to go to the gym today but they told me there was a 25 min wait for childcare so I went home sad and worked on my kitchen.  I had an appt for Tyler to see an ENT for his ears and it turns out he has to have tubes in his ears :(  poor baby.  I figured he would need to.  I really hope it helps him, the poor little baby.  More details on that to come.  Tonight I was practicing walking with him and he took his first little faltering steps on his own, it was soooooo cute!!! He is way passed the time to walk so I am so happy to see him trying.  I think his ears have played a big part in that and I am hopeful that he will be much better after the surgery.  Ok, now you are caught up on my life and you know that I won't give up my diet.  I will be back at it this week and hopeful to lose some more weight!  Love to all and see you soon! xo

Whew..

I woke up today and weighed in at 228 which makes me happy but I am hoping I can keep it up and go down to at least 225 by the weeks end.  That would be so nice but who knows if it will happen.  I know if I mess up bad that I can at least get it right back off.  I think I shall take that as another lesson learned.  If I want this to last, I have to know how to eat and how to forgive myself and keep trying.  Yay!  See you when I am lower!  Love you all!

rolling with the punches

This morning I woke up with great dismay to find I weigh 231.5  :(  Somehow I don't think that is real weight....could it be?  If so, I guess it is just life....I have to deal with it.  So in depression, I will face it and will work on being really diligent this week!  I do confess falling off the wagon over the weekend but I did sort of have a strategy.  I knew I wanted to have a free day on Saturday so I did kinda pig out.  The only bad thing I really ate though was chips and a cookie.  The rest was just normal food.  Then, I decided that since my family was coming over for dinner on Sunday night, I would just eat what I wanted too.  So two full days of being off my diet happened.  My strategy was to hope that my body would get shaken out of its plateau since I couldn't go lower than 227 before.  So I swam and biked on Saturday and rested on Sunday but I was still hoping that my body would shake out of this and start losing really good.  I also ovulated so I think that plays havoc on my hormones and I was hoping that being over would also cause me to drop.  We shall soon see I guess.  I have a full week of workouts planned and I am hoping to just have water and no more diet soda.  I think that may indirectly have something to do with it.   Am I nusts?  maybe but I have to learn how to overcome the bad weekends that will always be in life anyways right?  So I will use this to learn by and will always keep going and keep working toward my goal of a thinner me!! I know I can do this!!  I will post more soon and let you know what happened...Thanks for tuning in! xo

Water date :)

Since I decided how much I love the pool and always have, I invited Sean to come with me today.  We had such a good time!!!  It was such a blast to just visit and not have any interruptions.  Cameron was with his Aunt Nikki swimming down in Draper where she lives and Tyler went to the nursery at the gym so we were free for an hour to just play, talk and goof off.  It is amazing how you can find time to spend together if you just look.  Of course we had to scream down the water slide several times and swim laps and just hang out talking.  It was such a good time that I will be inviting my love to join me more often!! I love it!!  :)  I watched my calories real good today so I am hoping for a drop tomorrow!!!  :)  See you in the lower 220s soon!

Swimming!

I have always loved to be in the water so today I decided that it was finally time to include water in my weight loss.  I first need to give a shout out to my friend Kendra at the gym who reads my blog!! It was nice seeing you today and thanks for weighing me!  I owe Kendra big time because she taught me about Basal metabolic rates and told me how they work which changed the direction of my diet.  I can eat more and lose more weight and it is just freaking awesome.  I saw her a couple of weeks ago and in that time between visits, I have lost 5 pounds!  I am so happy!!!!! Thanks Kendra, very helpful!  Today I had so much fun in the water.  I have realized that I am either a great big kid or at least I know how to have fun like a kid...it is one of the two I think.  I feel like a kid when I am in the water for some reason and that was what I was feeling today.  I started with some water aerobics and then swam some laps.  I must have looked like an idiot doing the aerobics I came up with but they worked and I hoped no one was looking under the water...LOL - I swam some laps and that really got my heart rate up so I know that was useful.  I am very buoyant for some reason so I can just lay on my back and do nothing and float with my face out of the water and my whole body in a line, crazy huh.  It is very relaxing.  After my laps, I went over to the water slide and I think that is where my inner kid came out.  I climbed the 3 stories to go down it with the intent of getting a workout and I sure did.  I climbed up 3 times and went down 3 times and it was sooooo fun!!  I can't imagine a funner thing than screaming down a water slide.  I guess that part of me will never grow up.  After spending 30 minutes in the water, I went up to run/walk a half a mile or 6 laps.  I alternated walking and running so I got 3 laps of each which felt sooo good!  I have noticed that my recovery after running is getting so much better and that makes me so happy!!  I was trying to do anaeorbic conditioning which makes you work hard and then recover in an effort to fool your body into burning more.  I will have to see how well I did with it on the scale this week.  I live by the greatest and best cooking neighbors ever and of course they brought grilled steak, hot dogs and homemade guac and salsa over tonight - diet be darned at that point, it was just too good to pass up.  I counted my calories after pigging out and I stood at 2125 for the whole day which is only slightly out of range.  I think I am still ok considering my good workout.  They also brought homemade empanadas which are just plain heaven and I had one of those too.  I need to get better at saying no LOL - but I can't when it comes to their food.  I am going to make them some banana bread tomorrow to get them back...hehe such fun!  I have said goodbye to 260, the 250s, the 240s and the 230s and that is such an overwhelmingly good feeling!!!! It is awesome!!! I was 210 when I got married so that big marker will feel so good when I get to it.  It is just amazing to be on this journey, not really a journey because it will have no destination.  It will be a lifelong endeavor but one of the most important I can work toward. Thanks for your support and love...see you on the scales!! Love you! xoxoxox